Heylo all nothing-better-to-do(if you're this pathetic, you wouldnt be reading my blog) readers. I found myself refreshing my facebook pages repeatedly hoping for an update or something different to fill my time with, and concluded that i'm miserably bored.

Thus, this entry.

I just thought it'll be usefull for you guys, so you wouldnt have to crack your brains thinking of what to get me for my birthday. Which, by the way, is coming in about a month. I'm turning 21, on the 16th of January 2010. Yes, i'm that old, and i still dont have a noticable beared or even enough hair on my legs. They still ask me for my I/C when i buy ciggarettes.

Without further ado, here are the long awaited list of what to get Amir for his 21st birthday:



Please Click here for a detailed description of each gift.

See you on my Birthday! Hehe..

I'm done with boredom. *gone*

It's a been a while since i last updated.
And i'm running out of productive things to do during my free time(blogging is last on the list).

SO i've narrowed everything that i've got to say for the past couple of months away from my blog to just 3 points which i think might interest you or just benefit me in some way.

• My daisy.
• My nicotine withdrawal.
• My Birthday.

My daisy
My daisy is currently out of Singapore and she gonna be away for another 4 days. I didnt know it was going to be this hard but it is. I miss her and i'm trying my best to keep myself busy with an overdose of senseless youtube videos. I kinda need her around.

Miss you daisy.

My nicotine withdrawal
4 days ago.
It started out with just cutting down of cigarettes due to lack of budget. In addition to that, it has been a terribly wet couple of months and if you know well enough, cold weather triggers my asthma. Usually, my asthma is mild, it will go away after one night. This time it doesnt. Then i started getting fever/flu. I stopped smoking totally to prevent my asthma from getting worse. I took panadols and lozenges to ease the fever/flu and coughing. That's when i noticed something weird.

I started feeling tired, easily irritated, drowsy, fatigue and many2 other unusual feelings. I couldnt concentrate on a particular subject for a long period of time. Even my speech gets meaningless after a while. I have trouble keeping my mind on the road when i ride. My mind's not absent but i tend to have a shorter span of concentration. So it got my curious and started researching.

Guess what? I covered pretty much ALL of the nicotine withdrawal symptoms.

1. Anger & Anxiety - I get super easily irritated
2. Coughing & Mucus/Tightness of chest - Leads to my asthma
3. Headaches - Leads to my fever/flu
4. Insomnia & Disturbed Sleep - I've been sleeping at 8 in the morning for the past 3 days
5. Poor Concentration - As i've described above. I also started becoming indecisive.
   
6. Tiredness - Havent been very productive at work.
7. Constipation - Been having trouble shitting.
   
8. Increased appetite and hunger - I have been eating an average of 5-6 pieces of chicken for every half shift at work.
9. Depression - Everything seems to be difficult to solve.
10. Tingling sensations - Body's response to the increase of oxygen intake. My fingers and toes feel numb and trembles a little bit at times.

Resources from http://www.helpwithsmoking.com/nicotine-withdrawal.php.

So here's how one things leads to another after much reflecting on myself and what have been happening(i seem to not be able to find the right words to form a proper sentence now, it's annoying me big time, bear with me).

Lack of money -> Cutting down of nicotine -> Mild withdrawal symptoms -> Mild Asthma -> Cease intake of nicotine -> Full withdrawal symptoms -> Suffering -> Pain -> Annoyance -> Lots of MONEY to spend on other things!

I'm trying to keep myself on this coincidental 'quit smoking' programme. Wish me luck guys.


This post is getting too long. Will post about my birthday on my next post.

False alarm.

It's just mood swing. Hehe!

I love you.

Love is a very misunderstood subject. A subject so popular amongst the people of the world yet so undefined. A topic so overrated but remains so mythical. Is love real? Or is it just your wishful thinking of what would be perfect. Your obsession for the idea of being in love rather than being in love.

One who tries to define love is a fool.

I feel love has no need for reason, nor definition. Love only needs meaning. To me, love is how far you're willing to go for someone. It is how much you're willing to sacrifice. Your consideration for another's feelings and resorting to selflessness to ensure he/she feels the best they can. Love is seeing her happy, and being happy that she does.

They say it's better to be with someone who loves you than to be with someone who you love. I think it's bullshit. If everyone thinks that way, then everyone's waiting to be loved, and who the hell is going to do the loving?

In love i think you just need to take risk, to follow what you feel is right rather than what you think is rite.

I am falling in love, again. And it is emotionally taxing. Sometimes i feel neglected, like as though it was all nothing more than my wishful thinking. No, i'm not rushing, just hoping for things not to regress. I think i care too much, love too much. But i don't think i'm gonna stop loving, or caring, or sacrificing. I want to make it work this time. I just know there's some fire we've yet to spark.

Sometimes the things you do, or the words you say, hurt. But i'm sure you don't mean it. I know(hope) at the end of the day, all is worth it. I'm sure you understand where i was coming from when i reacted to the things that affected me. Sometimes all i needed was to know things. I just wanted to be honest. I didnt think hiding what i feel would help us in any way.

Daisy, i love you.

I just need to know you're there, always.

It's blissful.

And i feel blessed that things are turning out splendid. Never did i expect in a gazillion years that it could be a possibility. The odds of the spark actually setting off and bursting out in a spectacle of flames are dubiously unlikely. We overcame friends and self doubts and it was worth our while.

I believe, i trust and i have faith and that is all i need to keep the smile on my face and the beam in yours. I believe in us, trust in you and have faith in love.
Like the torch of athens, we've gone through some formidable complications to get this far, let's keep the flame burning through rain and shine. But for us, everlasting.

You rock!

-Amireaux™

I think i am falling so deep, i could never get out. And surprisingly, i love the way it feels.

Daisy, please let this one last.

-Amireaux™